School started this week, and let me tell you, it's nothing really that exciting. It's hard to tell if this year's going to be one of those great ones, but hey, tomorrow's only the real second day. It's hard to tell so far. Things with me and Hillarey are kind of weird again. I don't know. We were both under the assumption that the other was mad at them .. did that make sense? Turns out she thought I hated her for some reason, or that I didn't find reason to be her friend anymore since she and Brandon broke up. Mm yes, I was just going through Brandon to get to her, when Brandon and I hardly talked during their relationship? Oh, whatever. I'm just glad it's somewhat situated..ish.

And I decided, I really don't like physics. Ha, and I was thinking about switching into honors! I don't do well with the whole math thing - speaking of, I'm in Algebra 2 again due to failing miserably last year due to all the teacher-switches. And finally, we got SOME sort of apology for what happened last year. Actually, I'm not sure it was necessary, considering it wasn't their doing. The new teacher seems nice enough though and I feel like I'm actually.. being taught  - even if the stuff so far is like, really easy. Hopefully it stays like that the rest of the year. I'm not looking forward to taking pre-calc next summer. I've got so much catching up to do...

That, in a nutshell, is what my life has been for the past .. week. Sort of. Last week was boring - getting ready for school etc. I finished Breaking Dawn and Uglies - now I'm on to Pretties. Ha, like I need leisure reading when I'm in AP English. Hmm. Pray that I don't get behind? I can't afford it this year.. Especially since, soon, I'll be looking at colleges. That sounds so weird.

I feel so boring. I feel like more should be going on. Ahh well. Things will prove to be more interesting I'm sure..

When was the last time I posted? I have no idea. Sometime in June, I'm guessing. Probably before I left for Nicole's, but I'm leaving again today. I felt things have been update-worthy, but at the same time not.

My birthday's in ten days, sweet sixteen. I'm not doing anything big solely because I don't want to. I'm hoping on getting the pink blackberry pearl, but my dad has to call verizon to make sure there won't be a service charge even though I already told him I don't want the internet/email on it. The fam and I will probably go out to dinner, and then Kayla, Ashleigh, and I will probaby see Mamma Mia! the weekend after. Sigh. I'm getting so old. I don't even have my permit yet - I haven't even started classes yet, which makes me mad-ish. Whatever, I guess.

My hair's dark dark burgundy again. I got bored with the grown-out highlights and brown hair. So, when I went to Kayla's this weekend we went to the mall and I bought hair dye. Sweet! It turned out darker than all the other times, though, but I'm okay with that. :)

Man. Maybe this wasn't update-worthy. I feel.. boring.. I've been up to nothing but church, work, and hanging around the house and with friends, basically. And I only work once a week, which isn't too fabulous. I'm thinking of asking for another day, but then I have to talk to someone else who actually works on that day. I don't know. I might not worry about it since I'm just going to get a different job when the school year starts.

Ohho - Last week was leadership 101 with my church, right? Well there's this really cute guy there. And stupidly, I end up smacking the door in his face. Smart, right? NAHT. It's not entirely my fault, I mean, there was no way I could have seen him! It is somewhat amusing at the same time, though. I mean, of course, I'd end up doing something like that. Leave it to Kristen to smack a cute guy in the face with a door.

My hair still smells like dye. It's such a weird smell.





Har. I guess that's all, really. :D

Alright, so I went to the Mets vs. Padres game today - pretty good, kinda boring for the most part. Then we finally left around.. 7th inning or so? And then the Padres get a three-run homer & end up winning the game. WHAT THE HECK. Because we sit in the upper deck, I leave with fatty tan lines. Except.. really weird ones. Only the left side of my back is burned. I wore bermuda type shorts, so from the top of my knees and down, I'm red/tan. And then, where my LIFE bracelet rests, it's tan all around - same thing goes for my ring, and where my hairband rests on my other arm. I think that's it? My legs look especially weird.

I found two dollars on our way out, too.

Oh yeah - and I got checked out by some guy. 19+? I'm not sure. Pretty cute, but too old for me. I was standing near a ledge/wall thing waiting for my dad with my mom and my brother, and I was looking around. I'm already kind of smiling, so this guy walks by and he smiles at me. I guess I return it? I look back and he's still looking back at me so I turn around, still smiling. I messed with my hair, looked back, and he's still looking back at me, hahaha. I just found it so amusing. Especially with my weird tan on my back.. maybe he was laughing at me...

Haha. That's it. I have to start getting ready for Nicole's, I leave tomorrowwwww:D

Yesterday's post, I may delete. Everything was resolved after a mini argument between my mom and I.


So it's almost midnight, and I kinda don't want to go to bed right now. As it was the first day of summer, I slept in until ten o'clock and did nothing until about 5:30 this afternoon. I watched Pretty Woman and some other movies, but that was it. I had dinner, showered, then mom and I went out to find boardshorts. Went to the mall - couldn't find my size, or a size in which I was comfortable in. So we're like okay, let's go to walmart. The boardshorts there are like 15 bucks.. but then realized I don't have a top to match, so we find a top that goes specifically with the boardshorts. On the way to the dressing room, I say I need bottoms. So, I get a complete set for 45 bucks. Whereas, at the mall, a single pair of boardshorts was about 50 dollars. Score one for mom and Kristen. Then I get mousse, and a Shia LaBeouf poster for Nicole. Kayla got me one last week, I sent a picture of it to Nicole and she said she wanted one, so I decided I'd get her one as a present. :) So now she's getting me something too I guess? Haha.

Tomorrow - Padre's game versus the Mets. And I have to do laundry. And maybe start packing since I'm leaving Monday evening. Busy weekend. :/

Oh, I'm sickly addicted to this song right now - Boys of Summer, the Ataris' version. I have no idea why. I'm just.. elated about summer right now. Does that even make sense? I have no idea. I'm so tired, hahaha. I guess I'm finally crashing from the Mint Mocha Chip Frappucino..

Alright. I guess I'll end this post. I need to figure out a way to get clear nail polish off of my shirt, because I want to wear it to the game tomorrow...

Good night :) Or rather, almost good morning.

<3

I go to the ROP office on wednesday to turn in my papers and stuff so I can get my work permit. The lady says okay, they should be done on friday, but call this guy to just make sure. So, since today is Friday, my mom and I have it in our heads that okay, we'll go get my permit papers, or whatever, today. I call, ask for the person and you know what the lady does? She says, "No he can't be reached here." Click. I'm hung up on. Um, excuse me, bitch, but I really don't care if you're a volunteer and I don't care what caused you to have some sort of stick stuck up you're butt, BUT I NEED MY FREAKING PAPERS. I tell my mom this and she says she'll call to see if she can reach the guy. So, she gets his cell phone number... and it just rings. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Mom's about to leave to go back to work, and I ask her, so I guess we're not going to get my papers? She decides to go psycho on me and say she doesn't want to drive all the way down there to find out he's not there. I'm assuming I can still get my papers, but she just REALLY frustrates me. What frustrates me the most? 1) It's friday and I doubt they're open weekends. 2) I'M GONE ALL NEXT WEEK. 3) I start working the Tuesday I get back from Nicole's. This only leaves me monday to get my papers, and my mom works allllll sorts of crazy hours that day, and the ROP office closes at five, which is way before my mom gets out of work.


I really, really just want to punch something right now, I'm so irritated and frustrated. I just want to vent to someone and cry. This constitutes venting, but I still want to cry.

Oh another thing - I told my mom earlier she couldn't just go down herself because they need my student ID and my signature. So, before she leaves she says, "I guess I'll just find a way to get it for you sometime." Um, sorry, that's not possible when THEY NEED MY SIGNATURE. I'm sorry, but lately, my parents have been forgetting everything I tell them. Can they not get it through their heads? They're not senile. Are these things not important or something, so you just forget? Gee, thanks.


Some of this is probably irrational, but ugh. I don't care. I'm just frustrated. At least school's finally over and I'm able to escape in three days. Tonight, going to the Padre's game with my dad. Woohoo. And then a family outing to the game Sunday afternoon too. Same team. I really just want to sleep this weekend away.

School's done, for the most part - I have to go for a couple hours tomorrow or something, although it's completely pointless. I'm just glad that finals are over and I won't have to look at another Algebra 2 problem until.. next year. Tonight's my brother's 8th grade graduation - it's so weird. Everything's moving too fast, and so slow at the same time. Two years ago I was in his spot.. but it seems like that was ages ago, but now I'm already moving on to my junior year? All so confusing. I just feel like I'm growing up too fast. It has its upsides, I suppose... I'll start taking classes for my permit soon. I've got a job this summer (though I'm sure I've already mentioned it). I won't be making amazing amounts of money, but I'm fine with that.


Haha - so yesterday my mom and I went to kohls looking for boardshorts for my soak city trip with Nicole. Walking up, I ask if we can check if they have any cute, casual dresses on sale, right? So we didn't find boardshorts, but we did find a really cute dress - got it a size bigger just for leeway, but I get home and try it on, right? The padding in the boobs is freaking HUGE. I'm not kidding. My boobs look abnormally large.


I guess that's it. Life's boring now, but I've got intros, etc to do. Yay. :)

I've been thinking way too much for the past few days. Just about a person, basically, but still - it seems like too much. I don't like this feeling. It's weird, it's new, it's different. It's not butterflies and it's not some sort of... void, either. If that even makes sense. I don't know. I can't explain it, and I almost don't want to.. not here. It's just, weird.


Aside from that - I have finals tomorrow and Wednesday.. and I've hardly studied. :x I didn't make the time, it's my own fault, but now it's really coming to a close.. it's too weird. So much weirdness lately, it seems. Anyway, I know for a fact I'm completely flunking math. This year was just a crappy situation and then my teacher isn't really that good at all. I'll just retake it next year, but I still have to figure out how I'm going to make up all those credits.

I have a summer job lined up at my friends' daycare. :D I'm so excited. Two days a week, hopefully, I'm not sure of my hours yet exactly.. 9-1 probably. And I'll be paid minimum wage. Not too bad, right? I don't want to work everyday, that would just suck. Plus I'm already extra busy this summer.. And I'll hopefully be getting my permit at some point. x] It's hard to imagine my self on the road. I remember last, year, around this time, I had this friend James I met online - we would talk and we'd get on the topic of driving and he always said he'd never come to SD, for the sole fact he'd be afraid I'd run him over. But that's my greatest fear of driving - running into someone or getting in an accident that will harm myself & the other person. Sorry, I'd rather die another way. But then, I think of how I'm really bad about playing out the worst case scenario. I'm probably worrying for nothing.

Hm. I leave in a week. : ) I can't wait to get out of here..

I think I'm actually going to start studying now. English and Biology tomorrow. :/ Not too bad. English is just all the vocab units we did, Biology is just.. everything from the semester? Or even the entire year? I'm not sure, I can't remember - but I did fairly well in that class.

That's it.

<3

I'm lacking in something to do, so I figured I'd do a little update.

School's in just about two weeks now. Two regular class days, two days worth of finals, one day for presentations, and the last day to wrap everything up and say our farewells. I'm thinking of getting a plain white t-shirt for people to sign. I really didn't want to spend 55 dollars on a year book. I'll get one my senior year. I actually could be doing something; my science teacher assigned us to go to a website and print out a test, that would look very similar to our final. Lo and behold, it is 28 pages long. Sigh. Maybe I'll start printing that now.

Yesterday, I spent with Kayla. We took bunches of pictures and then went to the mall to see the new Indiana Jones movie. After we bought our tickets, we went to C28 and.. ran into our Spanish teacher. That was kind of weird, especially when we were talking about school. I got a C on the last test apparently? I wasn't there for some of the stuff, though. Plus we'd had an entire week off, sort of, due to projects week, so there wasn't TOO much time.. Oh well. It's done after this week - we have our final on Thursday. Oh, yeah, and the movie was pretty good. Shia Labeouf was in it - that was probably my favorite part. I don't know. It was just cheesy, especially the ending. But I don't want to ruin it. So uh, beware those who see it. I don't think it lives up to the other ones. But oh well, Shia was adorable.

Friday night, Nicole and I had a good heart to heart, literally. Something started in which she confessed to having wanted something, and so we started this whole thing where we confessed thoughts we'd had, feelings, etc. It was good. We were on the phone for a good 3-4 hours or so. I miss conversations like that - we're both so busy these days it just kind of sucks. But yay, I leave in about 15 days x]. I can't wait. I miss people, I miss him. :/

Well, Ashleigh called, so this post is done for now. :)

So I had another really weird dream last night. I don't really remember all of it. We were in this big Costco-like place, but there were dorm rooms. I was there, and I remember Aaron and Michael being there again, and some kid who kept following me around. It was creepy. I remember having pointed out some big woman in a metallic silver dress to Michael earlier in the dream, and I went to find him at his dorm, but he wasn't there.. And then there was some lady with a cart, and inside a metallic silver back pack. All she said to me was, "I don't think he's in there. I just came to drop off this backpack he wanted because you pointed out a dress that looked like it." Uh, okay? I really don't know where these dreams are coming from.



This staying home from school thing is boring. I could do homework. But I might just watch an hour and a half worth of One Tree Hill episodes. Gotta love Soap Network! Otherwise, I've done nothing today but watch some of The Wedding Singer, some of The Real World, and I cleaned the kitchen. Whoop-dee-freakin-do.

• I was getting married. I'm pretty sure it was to Michael, but it was an extremely impromptu wedding. I was still about this age, maybe a little bit older. My mom and I went into Wal-mart around.. 10 or 11, just before closing time, and we were running around trying to find lingerie. But it wasn't really working out to our advantage, because all the stuff there was hideous. And I remember running around in a strapless bra and a black, flowy-like skirt.. Like I said, weird!
  
• I was with Nicole, and we were going to see the movie Prince Caspian - but for some reason it was really difficult getting in. My dad had taken us, so we were situated so that Nicole was in the middle. I was leaning on Nicole and talking to her as we watched the movie, and everybody in our row was getting like - extremely pissed. And i mean everybody, and the row had to have been seating at least 100 people, no lie. it was HUGE. But instead of one big movie screens, there was a screen on the back of each persons seat - or every two seats or something like that. And then all the characters looked weird - especially Peter. He had really long hair, like in extensions, and it was clipped on the side - with bobby pins or something - and then pulled into a pony-tail, with pointed elf-like ears. Then, there was a point in the movie where, like in rockband, we had to grab a guitar and strum/hit a button whenever it told us to.. but the way that it showed up on the screen was as if I was supposed to sing it. I was, obviously, losing and got so fed up that I threw the guitar. Oops?
• Again, I was with Nicole, and I guess we had gone shopping and we were just about to head to church. But instead of normal church attire, Nicole was wearing a slinky, metallic gold dress. It was fairly open on the sides, so I was like uh - you shouldn't wear that, people will see your boobs. So she got mad at me, and I think we left and she was still wearing it. I guess we got to the church, but it didn't look like my church or hers, but Kayla was there as well as Aaron and Michael, and some other boys I didn't know, plus a couple I did. I was saying something - talking about God I think? And one of the boys flipped me off and ran off. So I went to go talk to Aaron and Michael, and I guess they figured something was wrong, so I told them and they got all defensive-like. They started walking, but then I started talking to Michael about the sweater he was wearing.. because it looked like it should have belonged to a girl. So then we were talking about that, Aaron brought the boy over who flipped me off, he apologized, and Michael and I said "I forgive you" in unison. And then he gave me a 10% pass to the zoo, and I woke up.

And those were my odd, pointless dreams.

Today I have no school, as well as tomorrow, though that's as usual. They're grading all our portfolios and stuff, so no class. : ) I figured I'd update. Um, i'm leaving in 18 days. I want to leave so bad. Going to Kayla's this weekend - we're going to uh, dress up and take pictures. What else is there to do on a three day weekend? :D

I am so bored.

It's nearly 10 in the morning and weather.com says it's 93 degrees. Are you kidding me?! I hate you San Diego, I hate you.

Yesterday, I was talking to Nicole (!!), and somehow we got to talking about when she texted me (after having just been on the phone - she was in line for a conference in Pasadena) saying that our friend Michael said hi. So I was a little shocked - I didn't know he was even there. And then we got to discussing it, and Nicole told me this: "When I got off the phone and said 'Okay, I love you, bye', Aaron was like '... who's that?' and I was like 'Kristen...' and then Michael's voice got all high pitched but like, soft at the same time and said 'Kristen.. Tell her I said hi!'" Then we proceeded to figure out how a voice could do that at the same time. Our conversations are so weird.

I don't know why, but that made me laugh REALLY hard. Probably just because it reminded me of how, at my last visit, when he kind of appeared out of nowhere, he was excited to see me? Bahah. It was just great. Almost as funny as when I was reading over a previous journal entry - I was really in the spirit with God and I was just writing. It was almost like being drunk or high.. And I wrote "I can hardly stop speak english!" I don't know. Nicole and I think it's pretty great.

Anyway, I have school today - 1-5. :/ Then small group.. It's one of our last.. Sigh.

This was pointless, but I felt like updating. I need to go eat and shower..

TOODLES.

Let's see what's been going on for the past week or so.

• Projects week: I learned to crochet and I completed a really cute hat and a scarf that was a little too short. That's okay. At this point, I don't really remember.. if I remember how to crochet. I forget things really fast. But aside from that, it was really fun and I enjoyed it. I think it was one of the best projects weeks, save for a few things.
• Hillarey screwed herself out of the friendship between her and Kayla, Ashleigh, and I. She's been really stupid lately since the breakup with Brandon - causing drama and all that jazz, so we've decided we're done. We don't want to deal with her saying crap behind our backs. Friends don't do that.
  
• Someone attempted at hacking into my yahoo account. Probably the aforementioned person, I'm assuming. But thank God for notification emails, because I caught it. And no, I did not change it and forget, I swear :P People are so stupid these days.
• School's out in about three weeks. :) Only two regular weeks of school, last week is finals. HOORAH. So technically, only three actually school "days" left - we have one independent study day next week I think.
  
• Got a membership to the gym:) So i've been doing that in the evenings - well, not every evening.. I might go tonight? If I'm feeling better. Either my allergies are really acting up or I have a cold, but my nose is running like a faucet and I'm all stuffy. Sorry if that's TMI.
  

I guess that's it. Life's boring otherwise. Sigh.

So I decided I'm taking a little break from my Sir Gawain/Beowulf comparison essay to provide a small update on the life of Kristen:) Nothing drastic is going on. I'm still doing kinda icky in the life area, but it's getting better. I now officially have... about 5 or 6 actual class days left of the ENTIRE school year! I'm so excited. Thursday and Friday we have state testing, projects week is next week. And then two weeks of regular class, and the last week is finals. Sigh. It feels so weird how this year is wrapping up, it's happening so fast.. I'm enjoying it.

This weekend was pretty nice though. My aunt came to visit again. She arrived Saturday, and we went to a mall nearby - around like.. 8? Everything was closing, but we headed to Mrs. Fields and got a bunch of cookies, which were amazingly delicious. Headed to Wal-Mart, got a few things (Eclipse by Stephanie Meyer - HOLY CRAP AMAZING, so far - i'm about... a little more than halfway through?), as well as 27 Dresses. It was a pretty good movie, though, James Marsden is extremely adorable. Then yesterday, after a blowup by my mother, we went to see Made of Honor. (She got all pissy because she and Kathee wanted to get pedicures so she suggested I get a manicure - I simply tell her that I wouldn't want to get a manicure because I pick off nail polish really quick. she takes that as an insult and gives me the cold shoulder [accompanied by many insults] nearly the entire time until about... 15 minutes into the movie). That was pretty good too, save for the fact that it was obviously a lot like My Best Friend's Wedding.. except, well, the end, which I'm not going to give away.

And now, I'm stuck writing an essay on how Sir Gawain and Beowulf are different and how that shows the culture shift. It was supposed to be a 3 page essay, but due to my fleshing everything out, it is now a 6 page essay - though I have a feeling a couple more pages may be added. Yeah, it's double-spaced but still... it's coming along pretty well all the same. It's easier than I imagined, but then again I'm fairly good at writing (in my opinion?). So now I'm excited for AP English next year, which will look fabulous on my college applications ;) Haha. Though I have a feeling I'll be majoring in something completely different, that's okay!

Hmm. I miss Nicole.. and Beaumont. Just a few more weeks. I need it. I need outta here. Though I really don't like how this always happens; it's like that place is my medicine. Man, I feel so weak here. Whatever happened to "God won't give you more than you can handle"? I feel like I've got more than I can handle here.

I guess that's all, really. Need to finish this essay because I still have readings for my Western Civilization class...

:)

five mo' weeks. or, something. i'm still in the "i'm so done with everything, everybody" phase. even my friends are starting to piss me off slightly.. just talking to some of them. i don't know. i can only take so much of people sometimes. i think i'm still PMSing, honestly.

my back is feeling better, thankfully! my sciatica nerve is messed up - thus shooting pains down my left leg and causing major back pain. if it didn't get any better i would have had to get steroid shots.. no thanks, i don't feel like having a needle poked in/around my butt.

so uh, like - five/six of us are doing a movie, modern version of sir gawain and the green knight. sure, sounds fun, but it's gonna be sucky and i know it. first: we're having the scripts while we do it. stupid? yes. not only that, but it's due within the next few weeks.  how we're going to do it? i don't know! part of me doesn't want to be involved, but i'm not up for letting anyone down and/or pissing off my friends. ironic, isn't it?

mm summer is so close. and it's looking better than ever right about now...

edit: this made me laugh. i've mentioned my pmsing in last three posts.. and still.. i'm late. nothing to freak out about, obviously, but it's just weird.

I feel extremely negative lately. I've been slightly negative for gosh, who knows how long!, about being stuck here. But now everything's just piling up. School sucks, Ashleigh's getting her panties in a twist even more (she thinks I'm trying to steal Kayla, what the eff?), I'm late (ahem), and I messed up something in my lower back (sciatica?) that's been freaking killing me for ages. Everything just feels like it sucks right now and I just want to CRY. I don't know why. PMS? Probably. I don't know. I just feel extremely tired of everything. Make it stop, or better yet, just make it June 10th please.



On a not so seemingly depressing note, I read the perks of being a wallflower last night. It was okay, not as great as I thought it would be. It was interesting to say the least, haha. I couldn't imagine going through so much in my freshman year.


Anyway, I'm bored beyond any measure, so I think I'll plop myself in bed and watch Juno again, or something.

Have you ever had an icky feeling in your heart, just knowing that you could have hurt someone's feelings?

After my most recent visit to Nicole (about three weeks ago), I've become so much closer to God. (Which is mostly why I've been absent from replying, sorry Liz<3.) But with that, I'm still trying to figure out if I should be.. adjusting my friends, so to speak. Mostly, where this is going, is with Ashleigh. I remember a post from.. the beginning of the school year, saying I was beginning to feel distant. Well, that feeling quickly came back. And I guess I did sort of distance myself from her purposely.. I feel like I don't relate to her anymore. She has a boyfriend who she is um.. you get the picture. I'm not - in fact, I'm somewhat against dating (for myself, that is). I guess I just realized we're not as alike as I thought we were. Last year we were inseparable, but I've realized that was also because I let her influence myself greatly. But now that I've begun to think for myself, and in fact, reprimand her a lot (oops...), we don't have much in common. I've grown tired of hearing her complaints about her boyfriend, and everything else.

And, as juvenile as it sounds, it's all because of myspace this all suddenly flowed back to me. I'd taken her off my top and replaced many spots with my friends from Beaumont. Now there are only about.. three people that live in San Diego that are now on my top. Why? I feel like I can relate to the others. I feel closer, like I can open up more. Save for my brother, Kayla, and my small group leader - Sierra. Anyway - I think Ashleigh found a way to take a peek at my top friends and well, realized she's not there. And then, furthermore, she posts a bulletin about how "you think you're best friends with someone and then you realize they don't feel the same you do" and I'm like, dang, that's probably just for me. I'd considered her a best friend, up until a certain point.

I don't know. I don't want to say anything to her, cuz I could be wrong.. I just needed to vent somewhere, whether or not it's read or any feedback is received.

On a lighter note - life is okay. I'm dying to be back up in Beaumont, but I'll be there the week after school lets out. Which, I am really, really, happy is coming soon. June 6th, baby. So soon, but so far away. Oh well. I know I'll be stuck retaking a couple of classes within the next to years, but I'm okay with that.. I suppose. I'm really dying to get into Life Pacific, so I need to get my grades up.. but I still have the next to years. I feel like I'm getting so old.. funny to think, most people are so worried about becoming an adult. I wish I didn't have to. I enjoy being young.

Wow, this entry sounds somewhat depressing. I think I'm PMSing, hahaha. So I think I'll go and listen to some uppity music, or something, and paint my toes.. And fingers, maybe. (My mom got me this rad polish that turns a different color in the sun:D)

So, that's all. <3

yesterday was amazing... i think i'll leave some of it at that for now. :D

not to mention, yesterday was hectic, but i won't get into that, either. it's complicated, and it was stupid. high school, ugh.

we walked around the mall so much my legs hurt.

the other boleyn girl was pretty good. ash & kayla kept running out of the theater. & i had an awkward run in with an old friendish person. weird. so unbelievably awkward.

let's see. i had so much crap last night, i feel sick.

i'm taking the exit exam tuesday & wednesday, and then thursday i have at least three tests! boy, am i pumped. maybe i'll do stuff today... we'll see. we'll see how much i can actually focus.

i  think that's all i can really say right now, i'm pooped.

Back at TS again :]
And is it just me, or is sprinkles like, really, really annoying?
Maybe it's me.

Anywhoo - I've actually watched American Idol this season so far, and I've already picked my favorite: Jason Castro. 



He's freaking adorable as it is (not to mention his voice is freaking bomb), but I think the dreads need to go. Or, well, he kind of makes them work? I don't know. Dreads are kind of gross and they remind me of poop wrapped in hair. Or, they can look like that sometimes when they get gross. Anyways, that's beside the point. I love him. :D I don't know if I'll watch the girls tonight, considering ANTM's new cycle is on tonight:D Which I'm super pumped because I love that show. Not to mention Tyra. Who doesn't love Tyra?

I'm doing amazing in any other aspect of life. As usual, not much is going on. Leaving in almost a week for Nicole's, thank gawd. I need outta here for a while. And then spring break is in like, a month. FREAKING SCORE. Not to mention, The Rocket Summer is playing in a month.. but I don't think I can go. ;[ No one to go with, no way to get there. Sigh. I mean, they're only the best. 

I'll stop whining about that now, because my brother's kicking me off.

Adios, au revoir, peace.

[:

i decided to update.. :] with.. nothing!

let's see - the all famous v-day. i love v-day. i've never been one of the haters; in fact i dislike when people complain. why can't everyone just be happy, enjoy some chocolate, and tell someone you love them?

ps, i love you all, due to the fact i am lacking a real valentine. :) and i'm a-okay in that department. i'm on a no-dating strike, for real. i don't find it to be important to suck up all my time atm. i've got more important things at hand. such as, school. i'm trying so hard to pull up my grades so i don't get kicked out :( haha. also, i reallyreallyreally wanna see the rocket summer - they're coming march 21st, which is the first friday of spring break:D:D. man i love them. or him. one man band, whatevs.

i'm pretty much crazy tired. for the past couple of weeks, i just get home from school and plop in my bed and watch CSI til i fall asleep bahaha. speaking of, i almost have an unhealthy obsession with CSI for the moment.. i don't know, it's intriguing!

and oh my goodness - it was amazing today, how hard it rained. i loved it, no matter how wet my shoes got or how cold my feet were. it was just, sdkjflsjsa. plus it reminded me of nicole - inside joke, bahaha - and i get to see her on the 29th! and then we're going to disneyland on the 1st of march:D hoo-rah.

don't know what else to update with really? life's not too exciting atm.
just post, comment, something! i miss you guys.

i got a freaking cookie for being enthusiastic, in spanish, yesterday. ;] yeah, i know i know. i've got skill. bahaha.

well life is rather boring. nothing too exciting is happening. usually this weekend i'd be gone - heck i probably wouldn't even be here today! nicole's turning 16 monday. :) only 5 more months or so for me... yaaay. i'm somewhat enjoying life/school right now. things arent too tough. we're reading beowulf and, surprisingly, i'm enjoying it! i may have already included that but i don't remember. :x

ohh yeahh... something thats been happening lately, sort of, that i find kind of funny. in short, here's the background: i was supposed to hang out with this guy at church camp (we had been talking on myspace for a few days), but that fell through and basically he screwed me over, right? well, after camp, we never really talked, which is fine with me. well, i've seen him around the church a few times, and i can just see guilt written all over his face. i know he probably won't ever apologize but it's like yeah.. he better feel that way. muahaha:]

i have to give a message on monday for my small group with church. skfjsl nervous/excited? yeaaah. i dont like speaking in front of people like that. it's just... weird. and plus some of the girls that attend sometimes.. we just don't equate haha. i hope i'll be okay.

i think thats it. maybe ill do homework?
NOT.
:D
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